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	2006.01.21  16.14 a year ago to the day i wrote this! i did not realize that until i just went back to copy this. i guess life really isn't random ;P life isn't random. energy isn't just bouncing around, it accomplishes tasks, it has purposes that transform once completed. once i had seen what the forth dimension meant and learned about everything up to infinite dimension. ten years later it still has a profound effect. without the endless supply of coordinates, square one is all that exists and will. stasis but i'm not there now. my world is very four dimensional at the present. there you go, great example: at the present. my life exists in space and time, at the present ;/ /wow that was an edit and totally not what i set out to write about/ when you come across something you can interact with, find how you coexist within it, see how it gave rise to you, see how you gave rise to it. won't helping one help the other? won't hurting one hurt the other? whatever you decide to do to it is what you, in the full cycle, do to yourself. long story short. i saw my needs in her. didn't help. i blew that chance. and now that i am able to help, i can't, it would just be words. fuck that, its never too late I FINALLY SAID I'M SORRY TODAY. it was wonderful.

	2006.01.09  00.04 its appalling when you look at obesity in this perspective...

	2005.12.24  21.19 muscle man and me i saved his life once

	2005.10.21  14.33 http://addictinggames.com/heromachine2.html

	2005.10.19  13.04 life as i knew it had to be put back together. i'm back where i left off albeit a bit wiser. and i'm in texas again. and i've dropped out of school twice since you last heard from me. and i'm happier than i've been in years. i know what i want again. peace.

	2005.10.19  12.23 guess who's back da da da daa guess who's back

	2005.05.07  21.46 hello maria, how have you been? love, regan

	2005.01.21  01.23 life isn't random. energy isn't just bouncing around, it accomplishes tasks, it has purposes that transform once completed. once i had seen what the forth dimension meant and learned about everything up to infinite dimension. ten years later it still has a profound effect. without the endless supply of coordinates, square one is all that exists and will. stasis but i'm not there now. my world is very four dimensional at the present. there you go, great example: at the present. my life exists in space and time, at the present ;/ /wow that was an edit and totally not what i set out to write about/ when you come across something you can interact with, find how you coexist within it, see how it gave rise to you, see how you gave rise to it. won't helping one help the other? won't hurting one hurt the other? whatever you decide to do to it is what you, in the full cycle, do to yourself. long story short. i saw my needs in her. didn't help. i blew that chance. and now that i am able to help, i can't, it would just be words. fuck that, its never too late

	2004.11.05  14.54 i just deleated my journal 2 minutes ago but then i thought of maria <3 livejournal has been a source that has arised a LOT of suffering since i started it. maria was the one who got me an lj code and i enjoy sharing my journal with her and morgan. nobody else will be added and there will be zero public entries. i don't like living on a screen.

	2004.11.05  13.09 In criticizing, the teacher is hoping to teach. That's all. Bankei what the hell, i needed two today. i'm dropping astrophysics, again. to pursue it as an unnecessary second major just to fulfill my own desires and waste time that could be used more worthwhile and money that my parents earned and should enjoy themselves is completely selfish.

	2004.11.05  08.58 You can explore the universe looking for somebody who is more deserving of your love and affection than you are yourself, and you will not find that person anywhere. nuff said.

	2004.11.04  09.42 ( amusing story )

	2004.11.04  08.59 Remember always that you are just a visitor here, a traveler passing through. your stay is but short and the moment of your departure unknown. None can live without toil and a craft that provides your needs is a blessing indeed. But if you toil without rest, fatigue and wearness will overtake you, and you will denied the joy that comes from labour's end. Speak quietly and kindly and be not forward with either opinions or advice. If you talk much, this will make you deaf to what others say, and you should know that there are few so wise that they cannot learn from others. Be near when help is needed, but far when praise and thanks are being offered. Take small account of might, wealth and fame, for they soon pass and are forgotten. Instead, nurture love within you and and strive to be a friend to all. Truly, compassion is a balm for many wounds. Treasure silence when you find it, and while being mindful of your duties, set time aside, to be alone with yourself. Cast off pretense and self-deception and see yourself as you really are. Despite all appearances, no one is really evil. They are led astray by ignorance. If you ponder this truth always you will offer more light, rather then blame and condemnation. You, no less than all beings, have Buddha Nature within. Your essential Mind is pure. Therefore, when defilements cause you to stumble and fall, let not remose nor dark foreboding cast you down. Be of good cheer and with this understanding, summon strength and walk on. Faith is like a lamp and wisdom makes the flame burn bright. Carry this lamp always and in good time the darkness will yield and you will abide in the Light. Dhammavadaka i found this one extremely apt in light of a certain matter

	2004.11.03  13.20

	2004.11.03  12.51 The best argument against democracy is a five-minute conversation with the average voter. Winston Churchill this lady called into C-span with her opinion of why Kerry lost. "People are sick of the liberals in the last 40 years, teaching children in schools that homosexuality is okay... immigrants trying to close the hospitals because they don't have insurance..." i'm suprised she didn't add intergration to her list

	2004.11.02  21.43 BUNNIES!!!!! the small one the big one the black pawed one

	2004.11.02  21.37 PUMPKIN!!!! :D :D :D

	2004.11.02  08.32 Solitude is happiness for one who is content, who has heard the Dhamma and clearly sees. Non-affliction is happiness in the world - harmlessness towards all living beings. Udana 10 in german class the t.a., kristine, asked how many people like to be in close relationships. 30 people raised their hand. she then asked how many people like to be allein. i raised my hand. i'm not introverted, i just don't want to be responsible for making someone else feel happy. i am happy, i don't need them elevate my happiness. i spread happiness (i.e. smiles and kindness) to anyone but i can't make someone happy who is not. the friends that i do have now don't ask that from me, they're happy with who they are, thats why there my friends.

	2004.11.01  12.56 Do not speak- unless it improves on silence.

	2004.10.31  13.55 Through the power of habit I have come to view an insignificant sperm and egg as myself. Shantideva there will be daily quotes in this journal be prepared

	2004.10.31  10.44 you know how hard it was to get out of the Lazy River at the waterpark as a kid. you had to grab the rail at one of the entrances and try to pull yourself out. just thinking of a friend and their situation. they want to get out, they know how but... maybe they are just telling their mom "just one more time, i promise" sure we were all in the water but when you want to get out you can do it

	2004.10.14  13.08 i got bunnies!!!! the three that i wanted wouldn't get along so i took three 3 month old black boy litter mates. they are so adorable i haven't named them yet...??? i dunno, i waiting until something clicks i kinda wanna give them buddhist names that fit their personalities. the one with grey feet is the calm one and lets me pick him up more than the others. then there is the left white-pawed one and he is ballsy, the last is the right white-pawed one and i refer to him as the big one, at first he was the wariest but he's warming up and the other white-pawed one is shying away now. i think i'm going to skip econ today, i never miss that class but i am so fucking exhausted from the crutches today. yesterday i sorta walked on my ankle, to anyone with two ankles they wouldn't call it walking, but i think it was way to soon to put pressure on it, it hurt a lot this morning. okay i gotta go clean the kitchen, the floor is covered in the cutest poo :)

	2004.10.13  04.38 its 4:30 in the morning i am so fucking excited. i have been looking at their pictures every 10 minutes :D :D :D the shelter opens at 11, i have class at eight and then i'm going to petco and the hardware store, i'm making them a pin :) oi vey, i need to take a nap for the next 1.5 hours. something by my couch smells like doughnuts not a complaint or anything

	2004.10.12  19.38 i'm adopting ryan, choco and midnight tomorrow, provided that the males won't have problems with each other. i have to go for the ones that have been there the longest, if i based it on anything else i would never make a decision

	2004.10.10  18.07 edited, i keep adding more cause i'm bored I am a hybrid of: Girl Next Door Progressive Girl Click on the pictures below to read more: Take the 'What Kind of Girl Are You?' quiz at CookingToHookup.com ( more quizzes ) also i totally lied about not getting any cardio i turned down the diabled cart at the grocery store and oppted to hop on one leg with a push cart. i was sweating by the time i was down.